Post by Girlrocker on Oct 31, 2012 17:28:56 GMT -5
I was going to wait until I was a year out, since - unbelievably - I'm getting near there, December 15 is my surgiversary, and it was a year ago now that I found out I was approved for my revision.
But I saw Dr. K yesterday for my (tardy) 9-mos follow-up, I went and had my labs done first before I saw him to expedite. One of the best things, after I walked in to the office and all the girls who work in his office jaws literally dropped
was the look on Dr. K's face when he saw me, and the whole time during my visit with him.
He literally shook his head and said, you look wonderful. But it's not just that...you're happy, you're a different person. You didn't think it was going to work, did you? And I said no. He asked me when the lightbulb went on, as I was telling him about what I was eating, vites/supplements, I've got some deficiencies which I'll circle back to in a moment. I'm crying now as I type this, because sometimes I still can't believe it. And then sometimes I have a bit of survivor's guilt, because I know some people here are really struggling, and it literally, breaks my heart. Everyone deserves to feel like I do right now, this is why we go through all this to get well.
I'm about 166, bounce up to 170 if I've had some simple carbs for treats, but basically 166-168 is where I live. 160 would be awesome, hitting those 150s would be stellar. But if I don't, I can be happy, I never want to go above 170 ever again. I never ever thought I'd live to see the day where this happened.
I had been through so so so many losses and regains, my RNY failed, I had no idea what to expect when I started dipping down, and it's been one of the greatest gifts. I eat well and often, can't eat a lot in one sitting; certain carbs kill me, like flour, gluten, oddly enough, though I don't dump any more. Can't eat whole spinach salads, have to eat smaller portions of high fiber veg too, and can't tolerate sugar alcohols. I eat lots of protein, mostly good complex carbs (ezekiel, quinoa, oatmeal, brown rice, sweet potato), lots of cheese, love things like cottage cheese fluff, cream cheese pancakes, and the micro muffin/bread recipes, and one protein shake of 60g daily, found the balance with fats (since it was SO weird to eat it again!)
I feel peaceful, the noise inside is still, at last. I no longer feel like that little girl with her face pressed up against the glass, trying to get to the other side.
I didn't know how simple, uncomplicated life could be when you feel comfortable in your own skin. Albeit, I'd like mine removed, and hope it will happen, but I can live with it.
Being here doesn't resolve all of life's problems - way back I of course thought that thin, healthy people never had any...but this grounding helps me cope and manage so much better. Which is a good thing since my career, my home, all aspects of my life are evolving, changing at the fresh age of 51 Part of taking the life leap and moving from my native Chicago to LA in my mid 40s.
For the first time, ever in my life, I had to dress up for an event, night time wear, and I was EXCITED. I went through my closet, which is pretty minimal now, the ladies here will appreciate that I don't have shoes, bags, accessories to go with things, much less a wardrobe yet, since building it back up. Tried on what I had, ran out for shoes, and remembered I scored this purple sparkly halter dress at the thrift store for a whole $9 and, it fit perfectly. JOY! And it was exactly right for the theater event/gala I went to, didn't care I wasn't in a designer frock and Manolos/Laboutins, de rigueur here in LA.
I do have to tackle some deficiency issues-still anemic, even after infusions though that's also partly due to (still) having a period. Vit D/calcium took a bad dive, and so did my A and copper. So I got D and A injections (ow!) and I'm switching over to Vitalady now, I responded to heme iron, and we'll have to see if I respond to accelerated dosages of Vit D, A, run the labs again in a few months.
So here are some pics, in the purple dress, and wearing another first, green skinny jeans! I'm with Bernardo, my first boot camp teacher, one of the best teachers I've ever had, taught me so much about food, attitude and yep, he's from Argentina and a hunk, but the best part is his heart is as warm and giving as he is good looking. He trains fancy people now like Mariah Carey, Cyndi Lauper, Jane Lynch and Glee cast (which is why he was here on the Paramount lot so we had coffee), royalty and whatever but once his student, always his student. And a couple of befores.
Thank you to this board, the people who have supported me. You're always the ones I want to tell everything to.
Purple sparkly halter dress!
GREEN JEANS!
Before RNY
Post RNY regain/before DS revision
For other pre-op revisionistas and newbies, update links:
7 mos out
weightlosssurgery.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=talk&action=display&thread=4711
6 mos out
weightlosssurgery.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=talk&action=display&thread=4273
5 mos out
weightlosssurgery.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=talk&action=display&thread=3938
3 mos out
weightlosssurgery.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=talk&action=display&thread=3251
But I saw Dr. K yesterday for my (tardy) 9-mos follow-up, I went and had my labs done first before I saw him to expedite. One of the best things, after I walked in to the office and all the girls who work in his office jaws literally dropped
was the look on Dr. K's face when he saw me, and the whole time during my visit with him. He literally shook his head and said, you look wonderful. But it's not just that...you're happy, you're a different person. You didn't think it was going to work, did you? And I said no. He asked me when the lightbulb went on, as I was telling him about what I was eating, vites/supplements, I've got some deficiencies which I'll circle back to in a moment. I'm crying now as I type this, because sometimes I still can't believe it. And then sometimes I have a bit of survivor's guilt, because I know some people here are really struggling, and it literally, breaks my heart. Everyone deserves to feel like I do right now, this is why we go through all this to get well.
I'm about 166, bounce up to 170 if I've had some simple carbs for treats, but basically 166-168 is where I live. 160 would be awesome, hitting those 150s would be stellar. But if I don't, I can be happy, I never want to go above 170 ever again. I never ever thought I'd live to see the day where this happened.
I had been through so so so many losses and regains, my RNY failed, I had no idea what to expect when I started dipping down, and it's been one of the greatest gifts. I eat well and often, can't eat a lot in one sitting; certain carbs kill me, like flour, gluten, oddly enough, though I don't dump any more. Can't eat whole spinach salads, have to eat smaller portions of high fiber veg too, and can't tolerate sugar alcohols. I eat lots of protein, mostly good complex carbs (ezekiel, quinoa, oatmeal, brown rice, sweet potato), lots of cheese, love things like cottage cheese fluff, cream cheese pancakes, and the micro muffin/bread recipes, and one protein shake of 60g daily, found the balance with fats (since it was SO weird to eat it again!)
I feel peaceful, the noise inside is still, at last. I no longer feel like that little girl with her face pressed up against the glass, trying to get to the other side.
I didn't know how simple, uncomplicated life could be when you feel comfortable in your own skin. Albeit, I'd like mine removed, and hope it will happen, but I can live with it.
Being here doesn't resolve all of life's problems - way back I of course thought that thin, healthy people never had any...but this grounding helps me cope and manage so much better. Which is a good thing since my career, my home, all aspects of my life are evolving, changing at the fresh age of 51
Part of taking the life leap and moving from my native Chicago to LA in my mid 40s. For the first time, ever in my life, I had to dress up for an event, night time wear, and I was EXCITED. I went through my closet, which is pretty minimal now, the ladies here will appreciate that I don't have shoes, bags, accessories to go with things, much less a wardrobe yet, since building it back up. Tried on what I had, ran out for shoes, and remembered I scored this purple sparkly halter dress at the thrift store for a whole $9 and, it fit perfectly. JOY! And it was exactly right for the theater event/gala I went to, didn't care I wasn't in a designer frock and Manolos/Laboutins, de rigueur here in LA.
I do have to tackle some deficiency issues-still anemic, even after infusions though that's also partly due to (still) having a period. Vit D/calcium took a bad dive, and so did my A and copper. So I got D and A injections (ow!) and I'm switching over to Vitalady now, I responded to heme iron, and we'll have to see if I respond to accelerated dosages of Vit D, A, run the labs again in a few months.
So here are some pics, in the purple dress, and wearing another first, green skinny jeans! I'm with Bernardo, my first boot camp teacher, one of the best teachers I've ever had, taught me so much about food, attitude and yep, he's from Argentina and a hunk, but the best part is his heart is as warm and giving as he is good looking. He trains fancy people now like Mariah Carey, Cyndi Lauper, Jane Lynch and Glee cast (which is why he was here on the Paramount lot so we had coffee), royalty and whatever but once his student, always his student. And a couple of befores.
Thank you to this board, the people who have supported me. You're always the ones I want to tell everything to.
Purple sparkly halter dress!
GREEN JEANS!
Before RNY
Post RNY regain/before DS revision
For other pre-op revisionistas and newbies, update links:
7 mos out
weightlosssurgery.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=talk&action=display&thread=4711
6 mos out
weightlosssurgery.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=talk&action=display&thread=4273
5 mos out
weightlosssurgery.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=talk&action=display&thread=3938
3 mos out
weightlosssurgery.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=talk&action=display&thread=3251
for this)... NO SURVIVOR GUILT!!!!!!!!!! I know you know this but (and I'm still wagging) IT SERVES NO ONE. You DEFINITELY didn't come so far over such a long many years to hide a single wat of your light under a bushel... not for any reason. CARPE DIEM BABY!!!!! It's wonderful to know you're reveling in your own wellbeing these days. Guilt doesn't help. So flush it,will ya'?! 
