Post by citizenk9 on Nov 25, 2014 15:22:52 GMT -5
I saw Dr Rabkin yesterday. I had my hospital bag packed and my jewelry off just in case. While I was in the waiting area I saw a guy (looking very pale and sullen) go in one of the exam rooms. I heard Dr Rabkin talking to him and then he told one of his staff to get a wheelchair and take him thru ER. He told another staff member to call the ER and something about a bowel obstruction. I felt sick.
Of course when he came in to see me I kept thinking about that guy and not wanting to take up Dr Rabkin's time. Such a co-dependent!!! He looked at my CT Scan and said that the only thing he was mildly concerned about (expressed by holding his forefinger and thumb about an inch apart - I define that as mildly) is the partial obstruction. He showed it to me on the computer. The fluid is actually below my incision and is not causing me any issues that I feel. It is the dilated bowel that is above my incision causing me the discomfort. He doesn't know why I have this issue.
He said he might send me for another CT scan in a few weeks but right now I have no concerning symptoms so just wait and see. Of course, I was relieved. After a few hours being home I start worrying again. Naturally I hope this goes away completely because I can feel my food digesting. It hurts in that area as the food passes thru slowly and causing my stomach to distend. I sit there wondering if the discomfort and pangs will turn into the same pain I felt before surgery. It makes me anxious before I eat and yet, I want to turn to food for the emotional comfort I have always thought it brought me. Dr Rabkin can't provide me with what I really want which is a guarantee of total recovery and a date for that.
Last night I closed my eyes, touched my stomach, and tried to imagine my body healing itself. After I was done I also said to myself that even if I live with this going forward that I'm not the only person to have chronic health issues. There are people living with pain every day and that's life. Like my medical office working mom used to say "I'll show you people with REAL problems, Cathy". If I have surgery, I'll deal with that also. Thanks for being with me on this crazy journey.
Of course when he came in to see me I kept thinking about that guy and not wanting to take up Dr Rabkin's time. Such a co-dependent!!! He looked at my CT Scan and said that the only thing he was mildly concerned about (expressed by holding his forefinger and thumb about an inch apart - I define that as mildly) is the partial obstruction. He showed it to me on the computer. The fluid is actually below my incision and is not causing me any issues that I feel. It is the dilated bowel that is above my incision causing me the discomfort. He doesn't know why I have this issue.
He said he might send me for another CT scan in a few weeks but right now I have no concerning symptoms so just wait and see. Of course, I was relieved. After a few hours being home I start worrying again. Naturally I hope this goes away completely because I can feel my food digesting. It hurts in that area as the food passes thru slowly and causing my stomach to distend. I sit there wondering if the discomfort and pangs will turn into the same pain I felt before surgery. It makes me anxious before I eat and yet, I want to turn to food for the emotional comfort I have always thought it brought me. Dr Rabkin can't provide me with what I really want which is a guarantee of total recovery and a date for that.
Last night I closed my eyes, touched my stomach, and tried to imagine my body healing itself. After I was done I also said to myself that even if I live with this going forward that I'm not the only person to have chronic health issues. There are people living with pain every day and that's life. Like my medical office working mom used to say "I'll show you people with REAL problems, Cathy". If I have surgery, I'll deal with that also. Thanks for being with me on this crazy journey.
