Post by lisa813 on Aug 17, 2014 0:20:13 GMT -5
Hi everyone!
I have to thank "history tracker" for telling me about this group. She has been very helpful and kind to me on the Facebook group. I originally had the lap band in 2004. It was HORRIBLE. All I did was throw up. I had it removed in 2005 and then had RYN done. I went from 304 to 180 and stayed there till I got pregnant in 2008. I gained 27 lbs during pregnancy and lost 17 after birth and then maintained that weight for 2 years. I then lost my gma to stomach cancer. A year later I lost my father to liver cancer. I also have a teenage daughter with mental illness and around the same time she started on a downward spiral. Then I had an ovarian cyst removed and found out I had stage 4 endometriosis which I am still having problems with. Back in 2004 I also had failed back surgery and was left with 60% nerve damage down my left leg and constant pain in my back and leg every day. With all the pain and depression I started gaining weight again. I went to my original surgeon to get help to stop the weight gain and he put me on some medication to suppress appetite but all it did was make me extremely hungry and after that I always seemed hungry and just kept gaining. My mother recently had an endo and had polyps removed from her stomach that were not cancerous thank God. Between the cancer issue and weight regain I started researching my options which led me to be referred to Dr. Greenbaum. Back in January I started the process and explained to him I was concerned you could not get into part of my stomach and it bothered me a lot so I wanted to get the Biliopancreatic diversion so I no longer had this fear inside me. He said he could do the surgery and I went and did all I had to do. The 2 weeks before I was set in June I met with him and he totally switched surgeries on me and said he was doing a distal bypass instead. I was very confused and kept asking him questions and when I said but then I still can't get in my stomach which is why I want the surgery he said my chances of getting cancer are very slim and he felt this is my best option. After I read about it I called and canceled surgery and my husband and I went back and spoke with him. He said it's a complicated surgery and he will do whatever I want so I said I want the BPD/DS and that's what he has me down for now. He is removing my gallbladder and appendix as well and doing a liver biopsy and now after reading other stories I can't remember if he had me sign saying once he gets in there he can change the surgery if he thinks something else will be better so now I'm a little nervous about that and need to make sure I speak with him that morning. I am scheduled for 7am. I've lost 16 pounds on the 2 week diet and then today I cheated and ate real food because my mind panicked and told me I'm never going to be able to eat again and now I'm worried I'm going to cause myself a complication that could kill me. I can't even remember the clear liquid diet for the morning of what I'm supposed to have. I was so good up until the nurse called me Friday and told me they are putting in a picc line then it's like all this fear has come over me and I don't know what I'm
Doing anymore. I feel scared but I don't want to make my husband panic cause he's already nervous and I don't know what to tell my 5 yr old son about where I'll be and I still have to tell my mom I'm going for surgery but don't want to cause she is going to make me even more nervous cause she always panics and stresses me out. In the other room I kept reading about the horrible gas people have and that has me worried too. I'm just so nervous now. I know I need to get the weight off because it makes my back and leg pain so much worse. And I know for peace of mind I need to have one stomach they can see into easily and check. I am just so afraid now about leaks and gas and pain since I'm allergic to pain medication the only one I can take is ultram and I've been taking it for 10 years now. I can't find my paper of what I'm supposed to eat/drink all day tomorrow if anyone remembers can you tell me. I know I'm panicking and I think I'll be ok I just don't want to come out with something else done or opened up and closed cause I ate solid food today. I'm just a bag of nervousness!
I have to thank "history tracker" for telling me about this group. She has been very helpful and kind to me on the Facebook group. I originally had the lap band in 2004. It was HORRIBLE. All I did was throw up. I had it removed in 2005 and then had RYN done. I went from 304 to 180 and stayed there till I got pregnant in 2008. I gained 27 lbs during pregnancy and lost 17 after birth and then maintained that weight for 2 years. I then lost my gma to stomach cancer. A year later I lost my father to liver cancer. I also have a teenage daughter with mental illness and around the same time she started on a downward spiral. Then I had an ovarian cyst removed and found out I had stage 4 endometriosis which I am still having problems with. Back in 2004 I also had failed back surgery and was left with 60% nerve damage down my left leg and constant pain in my back and leg every day. With all the pain and depression I started gaining weight again. I went to my original surgeon to get help to stop the weight gain and he put me on some medication to suppress appetite but all it did was make me extremely hungry and after that I always seemed hungry and just kept gaining. My mother recently had an endo and had polyps removed from her stomach that were not cancerous thank God. Between the cancer issue and weight regain I started researching my options which led me to be referred to Dr. Greenbaum. Back in January I started the process and explained to him I was concerned you could not get into part of my stomach and it bothered me a lot so I wanted to get the Biliopancreatic diversion so I no longer had this fear inside me. He said he could do the surgery and I went and did all I had to do. The 2 weeks before I was set in June I met with him and he totally switched surgeries on me and said he was doing a distal bypass instead. I was very confused and kept asking him questions and when I said but then I still can't get in my stomach which is why I want the surgery he said my chances of getting cancer are very slim and he felt this is my best option. After I read about it I called and canceled surgery and my husband and I went back and spoke with him. He said it's a complicated surgery and he will do whatever I want so I said I want the BPD/DS and that's what he has me down for now. He is removing my gallbladder and appendix as well and doing a liver biopsy and now after reading other stories I can't remember if he had me sign saying once he gets in there he can change the surgery if he thinks something else will be better so now I'm a little nervous about that and need to make sure I speak with him that morning. I am scheduled for 7am. I've lost 16 pounds on the 2 week diet and then today I cheated and ate real food because my mind panicked and told me I'm never going to be able to eat again and now I'm worried I'm going to cause myself a complication that could kill me. I can't even remember the clear liquid diet for the morning of what I'm supposed to have. I was so good up until the nurse called me Friday and told me they are putting in a picc line then it's like all this fear has come over me and I don't know what I'm
Doing anymore. I feel scared but I don't want to make my husband panic cause he's already nervous and I don't know what to tell my 5 yr old son about where I'll be and I still have to tell my mom I'm going for surgery but don't want to cause she is going to make me even more nervous cause she always panics and stresses me out. In the other room I kept reading about the horrible gas people have and that has me worried too. I'm just so nervous now. I know I need to get the weight off because it makes my back and leg pain so much worse. And I know for peace of mind I need to have one stomach they can see into easily and check. I am just so afraid now about leaks and gas and pain since I'm allergic to pain medication the only one I can take is ultram and I've been taking it for 10 years now. I can't find my paper of what I'm supposed to eat/drink all day tomorrow if anyone remembers can you tell me. I know I'm panicking and I think I'll be ok I just don't want to come out with something else done or opened up and closed cause I ate solid food today. I'm just a bag of nervousness!
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