Post by Girlrocker on Jul 15, 2014 19:11:00 GMT -5
Cheryl you are not in the realm of failing! Believe me, I understand the anxiety going through a revision and the fear of failure, but you are doing fine, you are only barely a week out. Have you ever been in counseling or considered it? It might help get you through the tough transition of having a revision. I have seen a therapist regularly for years, and go for occasional tune-ups when my buttons get pushed. I'm also take an anti-depressant and as-needed anxiety medication. You are being far too hard on yourself, you're beating yourself up and you need to give yourself a break. I don't know if this is just coming from your or the added pressure your non-supportive/non-understanding family adds. You are healing from a very major surgery, doing all the right things, give yourself time.
Ok well; that's good! I think you need to continue with therapy for sure, ideally once a week. You have a lot going on and need to learn now to give yourself a break, Pete is right, take the word failure out your vocabulary. No surgery is going to fix this, this is the work we have to do on ourselves. All this extra stress, anxiety pressure is not healthy, and you had this revision to do just that. You also knew exactly why this was the right step for you, and you learned a lot with your RNY. There's some fine tuning involved because the DS is different than the RNY, but you didn't fail the RNY, the RNY failed YOU. There are many good things we learned having one malabsorptive procedure and it will help you now. You will have to go through a lot more trial and error to find things that work while you heal and transition into food progression. You CAN DO THIS!