Post by Girlrocker on May 22, 2012 7:51:06 GMT -5
I can't believe it's finally here...it doesn't exactly seem like yesterday since we're changing seasons, but it's gone by so much faster than I imagined. And on the other hand, it's like a lifetime has happened.
I remember exactly where I was when I was approved; I had seen Dr. Keshishian for a first consult in October; less than a month later on Nov 16 I checked my messages while I was in Joshua Tree, and voila, there was an email from his office with my approval. It was early morning, and I walked out of the cabin to sit outside with the sunrise:
And breathe in the reality that my revision was really going to happen. That my plan to take off of work, now that I was vested and was entitled to 6 mos paid leave (half at 100%, half at 60%) could actually be set in motion. I could submerge in my recovery, something I hadn't been able to do after my RNY due to all the complications and additional surgery.
I had a list of goals I wanted to achieve before going back - one of them was finding a new job and not having to
but I am thrilled with the groundwork I have laid down. And sooooo grateful for the opportunity to go through all my post-up bumps and grinds at my own speed, to be able to devote 24/7 to my recovery and me. First time ever. I can return to work 50 lbs lighter with everyone thinking it's due to Atkins...it's genius! I looked at my therapist this week and said, holy crap, I really accomplished all that I set out to do during this time, it's a remarkable feeling.
I'm tired as hell from still undetermined cause of anemia, not just a little crabby and frustrated. This door to my DS revision oasis is closing, and a new one is opening. A little emotional, a little sad it's over, a little verklempt, a lot grateful, appreciate this community and the people I've met. In a lot of ways, a different person than I was 5 mos ago. You can teach an old dog new tricks Rock on.
I remember exactly where I was when I was approved; I had seen Dr. Keshishian for a first consult in October; less than a month later on Nov 16 I checked my messages while I was in Joshua Tree, and voila, there was an email from his office with my approval. It was early morning, and I walked out of the cabin to sit outside with the sunrise:
And breathe in the reality that my revision was really going to happen. That my plan to take off of work, now that I was vested and was entitled to 6 mos paid leave (half at 100%, half at 60%) could actually be set in motion. I could submerge in my recovery, something I hadn't been able to do after my RNY due to all the complications and additional surgery.
I had a list of goals I wanted to achieve before going back - one of them was finding a new job and not having to
but I am thrilled with the groundwork I have laid down. And sooooo grateful for the opportunity to go through all my post-up bumps and grinds at my own speed, to be able to devote 24/7 to my recovery and me. First time ever. I can return to work 50 lbs lighter with everyone thinking it's due to Atkins...it's genius! I looked at my therapist this week and said, holy crap, I really accomplished all that I set out to do during this time, it's a remarkable feeling. I'm tired as hell from still undetermined cause of anemia, not just a little crabby and frustrated. This door to my DS revision oasis is closing, and a new one is opening. A little emotional, a little sad it's over, a little verklempt, a lot grateful, appreciate this community and the people I've met. In a lot of ways, a different person than I was 5 mos ago. You can teach an old dog new tricks
Rock on.
