Post by cindy1976 on Dec 22, 2014 15:27:04 GMT -5
So, I'm officially freaking out and couldn't wait to share the big news! My surgeons office called today and told me I'm scheduled for surgery this Friday (12/26)!!!
This is amazing news but now I'm totally freaking out. I was totally prepared and scheduled for surgery last year and then found out I was pregnant and had to cancel. So this year I've been working hard to get surgery scheduled sometime this year. I had just about given up and accepted that it just wasn't going to happen when bam! great news! So, now I'm a mix of joyous excitement and nausea inducing anxiety.
The usual "please God don't let me die in surgery" thoughts that accompany any surgery no matter how minor, are now combined with "am I making a huge mistake? do I really know what I'm getting into? have I done enough research? can I really commit to this? what if I mess up? what if I think I can do it but really it's too hard and I can't? what if I get dementia and can't care for myself appropriately? what if I die in a car wreck on the way to the hospital? what if I don't lose any weight and then I'm a two-time failure (I'm a revision from lap band). what if I lose weight, look and feel great and then gain all the weight back? what if I get depressed because I can't eat crappy food anymore? what if all these other people who are successful have more conviction or willpower than me?" etc.
I've spent the past two years researching and planning and reading and preparing and I know in my heart that I'm ready and I'm sure my anxiety is nothing new to those who have already had surgery. And I know that I will be fine tomorrow, once I've had a chance to sleep on this wonderful news. I know that my anxiety and worry is just my inner negative thinking and the control freak in me not wanting to RELAX. But, I'll put those thoughts away and will be just fine soon enough. In the meantime I'm going to enjoy a wonderful Christmas with my beautiful family and do what I can to prepare myself mentally and physically for a successful surgery and my wonderful renewed life!!! It's so exciting to think that I'll start this new phase of my life in the new year!
If anyone has any advice, suggestions, tips, tricks, etc. that you can share with me as I prepare for surgery I would sure appreciate them! Especially things I should take to the hospital / leave at home, foods/drinks I should stock in the kitchen for when I get home, etc.
Thanks!
Cindy
This is amazing news but now I'm totally freaking out. I was totally prepared and scheduled for surgery last year and then found out I was pregnant and had to cancel. So this year I've been working hard to get surgery scheduled sometime this year. I had just about given up and accepted that it just wasn't going to happen when bam! great news! So, now I'm a mix of joyous excitement and nausea inducing anxiety.
The usual "please God don't let me die in surgery" thoughts that accompany any surgery no matter how minor, are now combined with "am I making a huge mistake? do I really know what I'm getting into? have I done enough research? can I really commit to this? what if I mess up? what if I think I can do it but really it's too hard and I can't? what if I get dementia and can't care for myself appropriately? what if I die in a car wreck on the way to the hospital? what if I don't lose any weight and then I'm a two-time failure (I'm a revision from lap band). what if I lose weight, look and feel great and then gain all the weight back? what if I get depressed because I can't eat crappy food anymore? what if all these other people who are successful have more conviction or willpower than me?" etc.
I've spent the past two years researching and planning and reading and preparing and I know in my heart that I'm ready and I'm sure my anxiety is nothing new to those who have already had surgery. And I know that I will be fine tomorrow, once I've had a chance to sleep on this wonderful news. I know that my anxiety and worry is just my inner negative thinking and the control freak in me not wanting to RELAX. But, I'll put those thoughts away and will be just fine soon enough. In the meantime I'm going to enjoy a wonderful Christmas with my beautiful family and do what I can to prepare myself mentally and physically for a successful surgery and my wonderful renewed life!!! It's so exciting to think that I'll start this new phase of my life in the new year!
If anyone has any advice, suggestions, tips, tricks, etc. that you can share with me as I prepare for surgery I would sure appreciate them! Especially things I should take to the hospital / leave at home, foods/drinks I should stock in the kitchen for when I get home, etc.
Thanks!
Cindy