Ok, so I have this hernia. And it happens to be situated in such a way as to make me look mmmm….about seven months pregnant. I mean, exactly. (As a side note, I'm wondering if I didn't perhaps have the hernia prior to my surgery -- since I did indeed have an enormous, muscular-feeling belly -- and if it's only become apparent now because the rest of me is so much thinner). Anyway, not a day goes by that someone doesn't comment on my Blessed Little Bundle. I have handled this by smiling delightedly and saying, "Actually, it's a hernia, not a baby!" I have realized that this is not the ideal response, A) because there's no reason to bring these strangers into my business, and B) because it makes them feel foolish, and I don't need to do that. So my new mantra is: Just smile and say thank you.
But this backfired yesterday. I was the subway, and a woman gestured happily at my stomach. "You're PREGNANT!" she cried in joy. I smiled and said "Mmmmm."
"When are you due?"
[Shit] "Uhhhh…..a couple of months."
"Oh, that's so terrific! Is it a boy or a girl?"
[SHIT] "I, ummmm…..I asked them not to tell me."
"Oh, yeah, you want it to be a beautiful surprise. I get it, I get it. But I bet you've got names picked out for the boy, right?"
[SHIT shit shit] "Mmmmmmm."
"And how about if it's a sweet little girl? You've got a few names for her, too, right?"
[Oh fuck, I'm, like, losing it] "Oh yes, names for her, too."
"What are they? You can tell me."
[Fuckety fuck fuck] "I'm…….ohhh, you know, I'm keeping them a secret."
"I totally get it. You're carrying God's gift. God's gift."
And with that, she got off the train, which thank GOD, because I was this close to inviting her to the bris.