High vite levels

How about taking them 4 times a week and get labs on them in 3 months to see how that works?

Don't sweat the high B's and D's..you'll piss it out.

Now for the disturbing stuff no one is touching with a barge pole.


I'm guessing you're having addiction and mental health issues judging by some of the statements you've made in some of your posts. I hope that you're getting help for these issues. Posting bleak one liners here won't give you the support you require and the sense of acceptance you need.

I genuinely hope you reach out to a health professional for support. If you had a broken leg you'd go to the A&E department and the same should be true for depressive illness. Many of us here have been down this road and getting a major malabsorbtive surgery doesn't help as the effects of estrogen swill about our bodies due to the metabolising fat. If you are hoping it will just get better you're wrong. Mostly depressive illness post surgery gets worse first.

In a prior post you mentioned alcohol abuse....another depressive substance. Are you still drinking? If so you need to give yourself an upper cut and pull yourself back from the brink. You cared enough about yourself to do something about your obesity now it is imperative you address the other issues surrounding this symptom.

Most of us have had these issues to deal with. Good luck and get better. Oh and don't hate yourself...it is a waste of time and effort..hate the Republican party instead they are taking your country apart at the seams and pissing in the punch as they do it.

I wish you well. x

Alcohol will take you out. Have you thought about going to AA? It might save your life. As was mentioned above, alcohol is a depressant and alcoholism is a progressive disease. It never gets better, only worse. I hope you will take some action to help yourself today.

You can get help for FREE. You don't have to believe it will work. You just have to go to a meeting and ask for help.

You are going to die and your husband is KILLING you by enabling you to drink.

Your psychiatrist should fire you and stop treating you until you stop drinking.

I can say these things because I developed a serious alcohol problem after my DS but I am getting help. AA is free and it can not only help you stop drinking but can give you peace and serenity.

What is stopping you from getting help?

~Becky

Yeh you're out of control right now. You are actually normalising drinking so much that you pass out every day. Time to go to your GP and ask for help now. The alternatives are so grim it doesn't bare thinking about.

Do you suppose you're there for your children and husband at all? Do you suppose they feel like you're able to participate in any meaningful way in their lives right now? They are now looking after you like an invalid and the sad thing is you have all the control to make this stop. You will pull nothing but sadness and drama into your life on this trajectory then feel unable to overcome this and justify your addiction because of it. The thing with addicts is that "things just happen to them". The reality is their actions cause reactions and things happen.

Get yourself into a residential program. You're in a mess and you must help yourself.

Best of luck dear. It is a hard road and you'll find many obstacles but moving slowly and with purpose...you'll make it.

I turly hope you find a way out of this desolate spiral.

Kaffy, you need to GET YOUR ASS INTO INPATIENT TREATMENT, GET OFF THE BOOZE AND GET YOUR HEAD BACK ON STRAIGHT.

And don't listen to Becky. She's one borderline trying to tell another borderline what to do.

You belong checked in to inpatient detox through the ER. You know this. Now knock this attention whoring shit about vitamins OFF. It's all bullshit because you are committing suicide with what you're doing right now with the drinking and the psych meds. Good God Almighty woman.

I promise you this: If I ever find out how to locate you in 3d when you post like this, I am sending the cops to your door on a suicide call. That's EXACTLY what I would do with ANY person as dangerously suicidal as you are. And I think your husband should have you committed RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

Make sure he knows how to access this forum, because we will want to know how you are doing when you finally get into treatment. We will also want to know where to send memorials when you finally succeed at killing yourself.

Do you have any idea how strangers GRIEVE at seeing this? Silly question, I know.

You PROMISED ME MONTHS AGO that you would get into treatment by noon the next day. And here you are again, same shit, different day.

The only one with the power to make you better is YOU. You do that by checking yourself in to inpatient treatment RIGHT FUCKING NOW. Anyone who says otherwise to you just following along with your delusions.

Once you get detoxed and your medications adjusted, then MAYBE a program like AA might help you.

Every. Single. Day. You attempt suicide by drinking and pilling. A daily suicide attempt. It's just like cutting yourself. Exactly the same. You are doing the same thing as slicing on your body every time you pull on the bottle.

If I were your psychiatrist, I would have long since sent you to inpatient treatment and made continued treatment and alcohol abstinence an absolutely condition of continuing in my care. But I bet you're lying through teeth to your shrink.

I really hate watching people kill themselves like you are doing and I fervently wish I could get through to you.

Kaffy, I think of you and worry about you often. I just buried my 57 yr. old brother that died from cirrhosis of the liver. He was sick for a few years. It was not a fun thing to watch happen. It's a slow and agonizing death. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, I beg of you to seek help. You need to be inpatient at this point and you need medical supervision to detox. YOU are worth living. Your family needs you. Please, put the bottle down!

Kirmy, I exalt you for bringing up this difficult topic! (it might be a delayed exalt, because I think I'm temporarily locked out...I'm trying to be a serial exalter)

Karen

I never usually respond to posts like this, yet here I am.

I am currently watching my oldest sister drink herself to death. Yes, I've called cops on her for her suicidal rants on the phone and yes, I'm in another state. This has been going on for decades. She isn't speaking to me right now.

This is hard to watch in 3d and she doesn't even have a DS. She does other surgeries to do the victim thing, however. What's worse is seeing the effects on my parents and other siblings.

Why am I wasting typeface and time telling you this? Because in IRL I am impotent to do anything to help my sister. Here on a forum??? Nothing I say or anyone else will make you take that step to go to rehab/detox.

I like the bare bones way EN has told you to get your shit together or die due to your inaction. Insanity or death are the only two outcomes to this journey if you continue to go without help.

I liked one reference someone said in an open AA/Alanon meeting about what moderate drinking is for an alkie "it's like jumping off a 20 story building and expecting to get off at the 3rd floor". It's time to stop doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Stop the f*cking drinking.

I guess I just needed to rant and ramble a bit here.

No hugs, just a kick in the ass -
Ratkity

edited due to lack of caffeine

*sigh* And she's disappeared again. Folks, you need to know that she's been doing this exact same song and dance for a couple of years on a certain OtHer board. It's been about drinking herself to death for a while, but there was a chunk of time in there when it was about cutting herself up.

She'll be back with another similar post when she wants another attention hit.

I apologize to those for whom my tone was/is a shock, except to Kaffy, who knows fucking good and well what she's doing by posting this way. It is symptomatic of her psych issues.

She doesn't want help. She wants attention. She might or might not be even a fraction as bad off as she appears to be when she posts this way. No way to know for sure, which is oh, so hard to live with in cyberspace relationships.

This is typical borderline personality disorder behavior. I have the dubious distinction of having worked with a LOT of borderline folks over the years, and I have been taken in by their stuff in more scenarios than you can imagine. This is utterly typical.

I want to encourage everyone who is getting their heartstrings yanked by Kaffy to protect your emotions. Do not shut her out, but remember that there is a LOT more going on than is even remotely apparent by these posts. It is chronic and for most folks with these issues, very little changes over time.

This does not make her a bad person or a lost cause. Not at ALL. But she knows what she needs to do and has been choosing not to do it for a very long time. She will not do anything about it until she runs into a situation where there is no way out. Then, if she is fortunate, she will get some treatment and do better for a while.

If she CONTINUES in treatment (of which recovery work is but a tiny fraction), she can have hope of more stability in her life. Unfortunately, most folks with these issues flee treatment at the first opportunity because it hurts like hell. It hurts worse for them than it does for people who don't have this kind of personality disorder. They SUFFER enormously. It's awful.

But the only way to get better and more stable is to do the treatment. What a bugger .

Okay, back to those who read her stuff: Protect your hearts. You will get them broken and very badly so if you do not.

We can only hope, and pray if we are so inclined, that she will not succeed in killing herself with these very sick pain-numbing and attention-seeking behaviors. The mortality rate for BPD is enormous.

I'm not saying anything here that I have not already said to Kaffy repeatedly and in spades.

Only one more reply because of what EN said in her last perfect post. She is totally on the mark. All my other forums, I don't reply to the crisis or moan of the day because there are a lot of mentally sick people on the web and forums provide some sort of validation for the mental illness.

Sometimes not replying isn't the answer either. Calling out the poster like EN did does help the other people realize there are other posters with genuine issues that deserve more time and effort if they so chose.

Hugs to all,
Ratkity